I Wish!

I wish i had more interesting things to write about, so i felt like i could write more often. I guess that is kind of the point of blogs though, right? Like a sort of diary that anyone can search for?
Right now i am drinking tea and sitting at a table, thinking about smoking a cigarette, and i wish it were summer outside since, i dunno, IT'S THE SUMMER SOLSTICE? I know everyone here has been complaining about the weather and it gets really annoying, but it is really annoying that the sun has decided to skip out.
I was just doing some online window shopping and i wish i could buy all the clothes and shoes and purses and sweaters i ever wanted. I think i have a little bit of a problem, but at least i know, right? Knowing is the first step, right? *sigh*
I also wish i knew where i stand with some people. I am never sure.
I wish a lot of things all the time.
Lately, i have been listening to showtunes, partially because they are really fun to sing along to, and partially because it keeps me reminded of where i want to go, and where i want to be in the world, and who i want to play, even if i have to sell a kidney to get there. I have recently realized that i am going to be one of those people who is married to their job, with the profession i fallen in love with. It's weird to be in love with a thing, but here i am. I am okay with it though. I am already so committed that i feel a little bit married, but not all the way yet. I think that will come when i am done with school.
Also, i sometimes wish i had not fallen in love with theater, because it is competitive and people laugh at me, and also, i a lot of the time wish i could be covered in tattoos.
Wishing is all very well and good, and everyone needs something to dream about, but i know that i have to live today, and not tomorrow, because tomorrow, it will be today.